Notes .12

"For a star to be born, there is one thing that must happen: a gaseous nebula must collapse. 
So collapse. Crumble. This is not your destruction. This is your birth." - n.t

It's been unusually quiet in my little blogosphere lately. The last few months have been filled to the brim with weird changes, a lot of emotions, a lot of decision making, and a big dose of heartbreak. Feeling ALL the feels is exhausting and distracting but last night after I sat around and listened to this album for the ten thousandth time, I started to realize that maybe in the end, all of this crazy isn't necessarily all terrible. I've been reflecting more, thinking deeper, facing fears, figuring out what the hell I really want and ultimately growing a bit. I love that quote above because the idea of a destruction actually signaling a rebirth is beautiful and also very  true (and very timely with the new year approaching). We learn best at our lowest and part of being able to see the other side of that is letting yourself break, cry, get sad, but then realizing that this is how life rolls and we have to look at those pieces on the ground and build something greater from them. For me that means igniting personal design projects, setting healthy goals (and sticking to them), refocusing my energy on the important people in my life, reminding myself that I don't have to have it all figured out right now, getting this blog back to a normal schedule, and who knows maybe a big ol' exciting move come Spring. So, with it being the start of a new month and all I hereby raise my non existent internet glass of fancy champagne to new perspectives, fresh starts, and forever learning from those lows. Oh yeah, and a TON of new posts coming your way soon. 

Happy Monday you guys. 


Notes .11

via Aesthete Journal

Something I've been focusing on a lot lately is the importance of being in the moment. Truly, fully, wholly being in the moment. I'll be the first to admit that it's a hard thing to do. I find it especially hard some days because I have a job that requires me to almost always be connected to my phone and it's difficult to know where to draw the line. As someone that really loves social media and having access to beautiful images at my finger tips, it's easy to get caught up in the texts, the scrolling feeds and the feeling that I have to capture every single fleeting second. We've all been there at some point. Hanging out with a friend and trying to have a conversation but that friend is so caught up in an entirely other conversation on their phone that it's like talking to a wall. I've been that wall and it's not cool. I don't want to be the distracted friend. Or the distracted lover. Or the distracted sister, daughter, granddaughter. I don't want to miss important conversations, or beautiful scenery passing by, or little bits of inspiration because I was too busy reading something on my phone, or trying to post a photo that could have waited. In an effort to find some kind of balance I've been really trying to make a conscious effort to put my phone away a little more, to experience things first and post about them later, to slow down and really hear people and see things and to try to truly, fully, wholly be devoted to the moment.